i'm always amazed at how quick i am to beat myself up for not living up to my own expectations. no matter how unrealistic they are. last year i committed to losing some weight. and i did (yay me!) - but it was a process, a up and down, back and forth, ebb and flow. some days i made healthy choices and some days i didn't. and i succeeded in the long run because i kept myself moving - yes, sometimes it was "backwards" movement, but i still kept moving.
as the years fly by and i get older and see more of the world and the fascinating people that live here the more i realize that life is made up of these crooked journeys and shades of grey. sometimes, i think about how much easier it would be if everything was labeled clearly - to get here you have to do this and this and this. to find a best friend you go here and ask for one. the people in the white hats are good, the people in the black hats are bad.
but then, the world would be a lot less interesting and colorful and challenging if that were the case. (although some days i long for less challenge :)
i was all filled with inspiration and ideas and lofty goals a week or so ago - and then a day passed, then two and then i thought, see - you're not gonna do this again. you say you're going to take pictures and blog and "create" but here you are letting day after day pass by and you didn't create a ding dang thing. oh, those old tapes are difficult to erase, aren't they??
the truth is though, i did create - i finished my vision boards!! and hung them up even, the healthy one on the fridge
and the other two in our bedroom where i see them every time i go to sleep and wake up
and i've been taking my camera with me all over the place, to work, to the farmers' market, on walks. i finally organized our bedroom some - got some clothes together to donate, put away all the christmas stuff, sent off some stuff in the mail i've been meaning to do forever.
so, i am creating - take that, inner critic!!
i'm not posting every day, or taking photos every day - but i'm keeping myself moving. i even started that list of 100 things i love about me - i'm only on 25 but hey, if i do 25 things every couple of weeks, i'll be to 100 in about 2 months and that's further ahead than i was three months ago, right?? ;)
wishing you all a creative day today and remember to congratulate yourself for what you are getting done and not spend so much time beating yourself up for what you're not getting done.
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